Thursday, July 26, 2007
Tuesday night..
I never sleep abit for the whole night..
Im back..
trying to make myself as tired as possible before i went to sleep..
Just to make sure i don't think of you the moment i close my eyes..
Never expect that the moment i feel tired, it was time for school..
Picked myself up from bed and went to school..
First lesson - Icapp lab
Another tough subject..
Xu was late..hahaha
And last night she still told me must come for lesson..
Anyway was feeling kinda tired during lesson..
VERY TIRED..could fall asleep any moment..
Saw you before apel lesson..
but hell..what different does it make?
Apel lesson was boring as usual..
Last apel lesson..I don't know what to react when i heard that news.
Maybe it for the best..For me of course..
Sleep all my way and went to mensar to sleep again before BFA
Wasnt paying much attention in BFA..
I fall asleep every moment the teacher stop her sentence..
Hell too tired..
Decided to go home straight after lesson..
Someone msg-ed me to do so too..
And i got back my BFA's quiz result too..still not bad..
Lesson ended..
Waited a while with bY for them..
The funny thing is i didnt know someone got such speed to walk past me when i still saw him way behind me moment ago..
Damn..i shouldnt talked about this
And to someone else..
I understand why the covering up is needed..
but i already know that..
I think i understand why you did that
thanks anyway if the reason why i think you did that is the same..
The moment i saw that,
I don't feel good..
seriously i just dun feel good..
The feeling is back again..
Feeling of being replaced..
Last time i was the one doing all this..
And this time,
its back so strongly..
+ i wasnt in a clear state of mind
A tired body with a mind being invaded by thoughts that shouldnt be there,
it just sucks.
I wondered..
Why izzit me and why must it be today?
回家的路上我哭了
眼泪再一次崩溃了
无能为力这样走着
再也不敢奢求什么了
Tears start dropping when i was on the way home..
Being a guy,
Im kinda useless..
Yes i m..
cause everything hurts me deeply
But i don't need all these now..
Why should i make a mess of my life,
being upset for every little thing
when You Dun even BOTHER!!
Come to think of it..
I really feel everyone can be that..
It doesnt matter eh.
Its the same to you right.
I dun deny i still feel upset..
I dun deny i still love you..
But i dun mean a thing to you..
I read your blog just now..
Another guy being rejected by you..
I remember someone told me..
"Those guys woo-ing her, i think she mention all..
but last time when the things happened between you and her, did she mention anything?"
But i don't feel the way like he does..I still don't..Maybe...
I fall asleep the moment i reach home yesterday..
I m too tired..
I don't want to think anymore..
I don't want the feeling to be back anymore..
I just want to be asleep..
Woke up in the morning and realized my house blackout..
No electricity at all..
checked it out and realized some reconstructing on the electricity thing is going on..
Damn..one whole day w/o electricity..
I got the urge to go online actually..
Just to see something but i guess maybe its fate that i cant..
And my phone is dead too..no batt and i cant charge with no electricity
One day without phone and com..
First time and it doesnt really make much difference..
No one will find me anyway..
Today yao jie look at me during break and told me i look kinda suay
Huh?!
What does that supposed to mean?
Didnt asked much and thought it was a joke or something..
But the moment i go for my Teleprint lab..
quek said to me
"Wa, you like 刚失恋 leh"
I don't know what to say lo..
Then asked him how come he say that..
he told me i never cut hair then dun shave..
look so lost like that..
Did i really look so bad?
I think so..
I think i dun even care about how i look recently..
Must take care le..
hahahahaha..
If i don't care about myself, who will..
You won't..
不管世界变得怎么样,
只要有你就会是天堂
No matter how much power you have, you cannot always ensure a positive outcome.
Will you ever think of me at;
11:55 PM
