Thursday, August 07, 2008
Everything is for you.
I know its hard for you,
i cant bear to see you like that too.
But its something i need to do to let you understand.
Now i will wait.
Will let time passed me by.
You got the message already.
Do what you need to do when the time is right.
Smile ba.
I haven seen it for a long time.
I don't want to lose it cause
its really sweet.
Will you ever think of me at;
12:02 AM
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
First of all, to people outside.
I don't care where you all read things from.
I knew what i did was wrong. but none of you can judge me.
If you think i don't cherish this relationship and thats why i did that.
I can only say you are wrong. I didnt meant to do or say anything. It wasnt on purpose.
You don't know my feeling and my love for her.
I won't explain much.
I guess i can only say they don't know me.
And the people that know me won't need my explanation.
I walked past the bus stop after school.
It was windy.
Just like that night.
That stormy night.
When you were so shivering cold
The rain was so heavy that staying under the void deck wasnt much of a use.
The wind was so strong that you still tremble even with jacket on.
I hug you in my arms, close to me.
in order for you to embrace my warmth.
Im looking back, i know.
I want it to be the present.
Someone asked me to smile like this.
Will you ever think of me at;
12:02 AM
Monday, August 04, 2008
I never want to let go willingly.
but i have to.
Today i realized the last time i meet you happily was last last friday 25/7/08
after that i never see your face smiling at me again.
Your sweet smile.
Olympic is coming.
Everywhere is talking about it.
Every advertisment on the tv is counting down but the date
the date whereby i should be so happy and looking forward to it seem so miserable for me.
How i hope that date never come.
Where will i be on that date ?
Just now i read your blog. your old posts.
I realized that for the last few weeks,
theres have been something on going in you but i didnt realized.
I didnt realized at all.
I tot everything was alright.
I'm slow. I'm stupid. I'm just too blockhead to realized.
But theres nothing i can say now.
= [
Will you ever think of me at;
7:06 PM
I tell myself not to think, you told me not to think. Everyone single one around me told me not to think.
But there are times when i cant let myself stop thinking.
When i see something, my mind and my eyes are just like linked somehow
I know you are happy. I know you feel so worth it when he smiled. I know all that.
I thought maybe you think it was nothing, maybe you just trying to express how you feel.
But it was only second day.
You may not feel a thing anymore but someone somewhere still do.
So can you try sparing a thought for people sometime.
Will you ever think of me at;
9:14 AM
Sunday, August 03, 2008
I break down today.
I let it all out.
Infront of her, I can be myself.
Don't have to act a brave front.
Thank you mum.
I promised myelf this will be the last.
Will you ever think of me at;
11:29 PM
Saturday, August 02, 2008
And who the hell lied about loving me. CHEATER!!
Will you ever think of me at;
6:48 PM
