I miss those memories. Will you come back to me?

Sunday, July 08, 2007

I try not to online as long as possible today..
cause i know as long as im online..
it will hurt me..

But still i came online..
Saw it..
Im lost for words..
I dunno what to say..
Its like thousand needles piercing my heart..one by one..

I know i changed after that..
scary as it may seem..
but i love you..
I don't understand whats so scary..
Am i wrong in what i do for loving you?/

Being harsh is what you choose to make me stand again?/
I can't tell you whether it helps..
I can't tell you to go soft on me..

Things that are destroyed are already gone when you decided to treat me this way..
After all this,
Will i hate you?/
Will i?/

'cos u are kohwencong. someone who turned me off. cos u are DESTROYING UR FUCKING LIFE cos of me.
and GET URSELF A LIFE!'

Is this part of your harsh words..
You mean it? /
DO YOU?!!

I always believe what you did is because you still care..
even if my mind told me You'r not..
I rather lie to myself..
I know you'r doing this to let me get back my life..
but you won't be in it even if i got it back..

I did visited his blog..
Right after yours..
I heard the song..
I believe it was for you..
Even though i don't wish to admit it..
Even though that i don't really like him..
But it doesnt matter..

Do you think he will treat you differently?/
What if everything was like what it was before?/
I cant accept that..
cause i love you now..

You asked me to try my best not to love you..
even if i really allow myself to do that..
Where'll you be?
Will you be beside me?

I don't want you to be irritated by me..
but im afraid..
very afraid..

Will you ever think of me at;
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